<font color="#bb44bb"><span style="COLOR: #bb44bb;"><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 42pt; mso-char-indent-count: 3.0; mso-char-indent-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #bb44bb; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">好奇心真的可以战胜一切,主啊,原谅我吧,一个<span lang="EN-US">15岁的孩子。</span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 42pt; mso-char-indent-count: 3.0; mso-char-indent-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #bb44bb; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">记事簿第一页写了一首姑且叫做诗歌的文字:亲爱的雪莲花,请不要为我悲伤,当明天太阳升起的时候,那第一缕曙光便是我送你出嫁的衣裳<span lang="EN-US">……简单的几行字,我的心却感觉到前所未有的难受,是什么意思呢。。。。。</span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 42pt; mso-char-indent-count: 3.0; mso-char-indent-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #bb44bb; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">我接着往下翻,记事簿记录了从西门的爸爸破产到现在的生活,原来,西门小学转学是跟爸妈去了广州,他爸爸继续在广州摆地摊卖黄碟,但那个时候政府已经开始严厉打击这类贩子,所以西门一家在广州的日子过得很清苦,西门的妈妈捱不了那样的生活,跟一个香港富商走了,西门爸爸感觉一夜之间变得一无所有,从此,便自暴自弃,终日借酒浇愁,醉了就打骂西门,醒来又不停忏悔。黄碟生意彻底无法做后,他们重新回到<span lang="EN-US">H镇,没有任何收入的西门老爹更加忧愁,仍是整日喝酒买醉,对西门更是不管不顾,甚至把对西门母亲的怨恨都发泄在西门身上,看到西门不打即骂。</span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;"><p></p></span></p><p></p><p></p><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 36pt; mso-char-indent-count: 3.0; mso-char-indent-size: 12.0pt;"><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #bb44bb; FONT-FAMILY: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;"> </span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #bb44bb; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">母亲的离去、父亲的堕落、生活的艰辛,让这个年仅</span><span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #bb44bb; FONT-FAMILY: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">16</span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #bb44bb; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;">岁的孩子固执的以为这个世界没有温暖只有冰霜,无数次想到了死,对这个世界仅有的依恋,就是那个差点成为他老婆的女孩:阿莲。但阿莲的离开,让西门觉得生活中那点点的星光也消失而去。</span></p></span><span style="FONT-SIZE: 10.5pt; COLOR: #bb44bb; FONT-FAMILY: 宋体; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA;"><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 56pt; mso-char-indent-count: 4.0; mso-char-indent-size: 14.0pt;"><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #bb44bb; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;">西门日记里写到:这个世界,犹如天山冰峰的棱角时刻划拉着我残破的身躯,疼痛早已麻木我千疮百孔的灵魂,泪水化作熊熊大火将我焚烧成灰烬,洒落在无数次通往地狱的门径,就在我即将闭上双眼的瞬间,我仿佛看到雪山深处那朵盛开的雪莲花,娇艳无比,在风的吹拂下慢慢的远去,远去。。。。。。。</span></p><span style="FONT-SIZE: 14pt; COLOR: #bb44bb; mso-bidi-font-size: 12.0pt;"><span lang="EN-US"><p><font color="#bb44bb">看完日记,眼泪再也忍不住奔涌而来,我猛然知道心里那种挥之不去的难受就叫心痛,昨日的一幕幕在眼前上演,挨我拳头的西门、为我扑火烫伤手的西门、背我下山的西门。。。。。。</font></p><p><font color="#bb44bb"></font> </p><p><font color="#bb44bb"><font color="#4444bb">剪掉了的头发<br/>我的倔强在风中散乱<br/><br/>所有说过的话<br/>依稀之间都还存在<br/><br/>撕碎了的裙摆<br/>我的野蛮不想要谁管<br/>笑是因为眼泪已流干<br/>哭是因为我还不习惯<br/>如果我能不痛<br/>像个傻瓜那么的无憾<br/>你就不必小心翼翼的躲我<br/>躲到你心烦意乱<br/>如果我能不痛简简单单<br/>陪你玩得没负担<br/>你能不能疼我多一点<br/>带我重回到记忆中<br/>支微末节的片段<br/>----<br/>快乐短忘记却很难<br/>有过的愉快<br/>惩罚每一秒现在<br/>逼我不得不悲哀</font></font></p><p></p></span></span><p></p></span></font><font color="#bb44bb"></font><p><font color="#bb44bb"></font></p>
[此贴子已经被作者于2007-2-14 1:36:56编辑过]
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